I used to make new year's resolutions. I don't know about you, but they never lasted very long. Three days into the new year and I was already off my diet or doing the exact opposite of what I had set out to achieve. I should have decided to do the opposite of what I wanted to do like eat only sweets, then perhaps I would have kept my resolution. The fact of the matter is, I never fulfilled the intention and I would beat myself up about it. As I sat here looking at the blank pages in my journal (good old paper and pen in hand) I couldn't help but reflect on 2017 and revisit all the things I enjoyed about the year and all the things that drove me batty. 2017 was a year of incredible risk and effort. Putting everything we had into creating something that could help others. 2017 was a year of commitment and hard work. Looking back at the year allowed me to look forward into the new year and think about what I wanted it to look like. I wanted to peer into the future and visualize what it would be like. What was the plan? What was the bigger picture? The word I kept hearing was "believe."
My word for 2018 is BELIEVE. Believe that I am exactly where I am supposed to me. Believe that I am enough. Believe in things yet unseen. Believe in my instincts. Believe in the people God has put in my path. Believe that anything is possible.
I wondered about that word. I wondered why it was such a powerful word to me. Why at that moment could a word bring me to tears? I realized at that moment that I struggle so much with self-doubt. I don't want to let anyone down. I don't want to make any mistakes. But, life isn't perfect. It's messy! And sometimes my hot mess life is exactly where I need to be so that I can learn and grow from it. “Belief" implies a firm faith, conviction, and confidence. To believe is to elicit positive approval or manifestation of something or an event that is true, real, or possible. Believe is a verb, an action word. It is a word that must be applied, applied every day.
1. accept (something) as true; feel sure of the truth of.
2. as to have a firm conviction as to the goodness, efficacy, or ability of something.
To believe requires effort. Sometimes more effort than anything else because you may be believing in something that you haven't seen, but I knew that believe was the word. My word for 2018 because it would effects how I would view every aspect of my life. The word believe brought me joy and peace.
I believe in you. Thank you for believing in me.